Tag Archives: Grief

My own private island

Posted on January 18, 2012 by E

The more I date, the more I know that Joe was not the right man for me—but the more that I date, the more I realize that I am not over what has happened, I am not over the deceit … Continue reading →

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The good, the bad and the same person.

Posted on October 24, 2011 by E

I’ve tried to ignore it.  I’ve tried to pretend I don’t remember, or that today is a day of no significance.  But the truth is it is.  Today is Joe’s birthday.   As much as I try to hate him, I … Continue reading →

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The accomplice

Posted on October 13, 2011 by E

I can’t recall if I’ve mentioned him before, but throughout the majority of his “acting out” Joe had an accomplice, Nick (name changed). I knew Nick long before I knew Joe, hell I introduced Joe to Nick—a decision I came … Continue reading →

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The First Step Talk

Posted on August 30, 2011 by E

Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over compulsive sexual behavior — that our lives had become unmanageable. Anyone who knows anything about 12 step meetings, (including the semi-inacurate stuff you see on T.V.) knows that well, there are 12 … Continue reading →

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Under His Thumb

Posted on August 24, 2011 by E

As the days, weeks, MONTHS have passed by I have grown and changed and moved on with my life.  But, on the days when I least expect it, something will happen that will crush me, will push me, will make … Continue reading →

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Damaging Beliefs.

Posted on August 4, 2011 by E

“It’s not what we don’t know that hurts us, it’s what we believe is true that isn’t that does the damage” For a very, very, VERY long time I believed many things that were not true about my relationship with … Continue reading →

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My Secret Life.

Posted on July 18, 2011 by E

I feel like I have been making progress.  Real Progress.  Good progress.  I have been going out more, spending time with friends old and new and honestly, living again as opposed to merely existing/surviving as I had been doing for … Continue reading →

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How it all went down (part I)

Posted on June 26, 2011 by E

I stood in front of my mirror fixing my makeup and adjusting my new bikini top.  Stay cool, be calm have fun today I coached myself I stepped away, checked and rechecked my bags that I had packed meticulously hours … Continue reading →

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Life now. (a work in progress post)

Posted on June 15, 2011 by E

Life now is different.  Life now at times is fun, at times is overwhelmingly hard.  Life now has made me realize how strong I am…and how resilient I have become. I have a new routine, a new pattern a new … Continue reading →

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15 Days…

Posted on June 14, 2011 by E

15 days.  We haven’t spoken in 15 days.  To some, this may sound like a short time, but to me it has made a lifetime of difference.  I just couldn’t play pretend anymore.  I just couldn’t keep seeing him, talking … Continue reading →

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